Away in the north


I am in Shetland at the moment. It is my in-laws golden anniversary, so we have come up to be with them. I am very happy that we did, because as their other children can't be here. I am scanning in their old slides and restoring them for an anniversary present. It is lovely work as I get to see old family memories and hear the stories. Slow work too though. I am looking forward to relaxing, feeling brisk air on my face, smelling the sea, shopping the picturesque high street in town. I am planning to buy nice hand-dyed Shetland wool for making crocheted flowers.

I am starting week 3 of the Artist's Way and am still enjoying it. I spent two weeks on week 2 which was all about identity; that is a big issue for me so well worth taking the extra time on. Reading the chapter for week 3 surprisingly brought tears to my eyes at one point. She was discussing how people develop detachment as a defence mechanism and it just struck a deep chord with me. I got a flash of me in hurt defensive mode and flashbacks to a younger me and it was all a bit of a revelation.

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Learning to be...

I love the web. It took a long time for me to get this blog thing, but, turns out, I was just reading the wrong blogs. I love the web because it connects me to my people, to people like me, to people I can learn from. A few reminders of this happened today.

Reading Zen habits. I found this listed on Ali Edwards' blog on Monday, which was Blog Action Day - I basically missed it this year. So many good ideas her for living the kind of life I want to lead. A few of my favourites: simple living; zen productivity; and today's post about consumerism.

I am so grateful to have discovered Liz Elayne's blog. Her title says it all, be present, be here. I am reading through her past posts, and I am finding beautiful photography, poetry, art, wisdom (and I am stalking her etsy shop too!).

Don't forget to check out the people in my blogroll. I am keeping it small and real, the people I check in with every day or two, the people who influence my world in many little ways.

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I know it's been awhile

It feels like I haven't been writing much. I normally follow a pretty strict but simple rule that each post will contain an image and a chunk of text. Not too much to ask, surely? Leaving my job was a huge life choice and the right one, but I have had an emotional and vulnerable couple of months.

An update for new readers:
Having taught nursery and kindergarten all my adult life and completed three stages of qualifications along the way, last year I was promoted to director of studies at the private school in London where I teach. I love teaching, so never wanted an admin role, but this allowed me to keep teaching and have a voice in curriculum and policy decisions. However, a handful of things happened in our community and our families that reminded us emphatically that life is short and precious.

K and I share many of the same values, centred around home, family and the environment, and these had become ever more neglected over the years in the rat race. We opted to live a simpler, more authentic life. So I resigned from both roles. As it turned out, I was offered a few flexible hours a week on curriculum, and some supply teaching work - the perfect balance, especially for the transition year.

Everyday I am grateful that we made this choice, and that we share the values and strengths that make it possible. Any transition is difficult though, and there have been some surprises. It has been hard to let go of measurable success. I keep catching my inner critic at work, expecting myself to be instantly on top of budgeting, household routine, cooking wholesome food, living an artful life. It has taken me by surprise too that people have responded with such jealousy, immediately backed up with reasons why they couldn't do this.

Creative

As promised, an image. I think I have shared this page before, but it seemed fitting, and I love the photo that my dear friend Z took for me.

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