Missing in Blogland
I really appreciate all of you popping in now and again to see if I've added anything new. You know how sometimes you just don't have any words? That's how I've been. I think there are a lot of reasons that I haven't been posting lately:
- My mind has been on my grandfather who passed away at the end of March. I didn't really want to talk about it, and I didn't want anything on here that would make my Mum sad if she was looking at my site while at work.
- I wanted to express my joy and gratitude for Artfest, but didn't really have the words.
- Most of my photography has been on film, and that takes more effort to get on here.
- Not wanting to be flamed for visiting China at such a controversial time (and now such a sorrowful time, as they try to save what they can after the earthquake).
- Having secret things in the pipeline and, as always, keeping my hopes close to my heart, and not being allowed to talk about other things.
- Also, I want to change my blog around, so I think I've found it frustrating to try and post without having the time to change things around how I want.
But it feels like a change is in the air, so we shall see.
Wanna feel better about your creating space?
I am lucky. I have a room of my own, just as Virginia Woolf prescribed. It used to be the little bedroom (tiny boxroom that even the realtors called half a bedroom!), then it morphed into the junk room. Ever since the single bed went though, it has been designated a room for me to use as I will and there is a table in there for me to sew. It has seen so many cycles of big sort out - creative use - too messy to use - time for the big sort out again.
We live in a small space in London. I have many interests, and I have done 5 years of university while we've lived here. The walls are bursting at the seams. But we love it. When I left work, my first priority was to declutter everything, but it has been discouraging, when small steps are swallowed up by the intimidating whole.
But I am lucky, I have a room of my own and by damn, I'm going to use it. Today I'd had enough. Why? Maybe because Zenia just moved and it is so much fun setting up a new space. Maybe because I just got back from Artfest and realised that without my space I am less productive. Maybe it's because I am going to IKEA tomorrow and I can buy some stuff to help. Whatever it is, it's not a good idea on a day when you are feeling utterly crappy with some random bug.
So in the name of fresh starts, I am coming clean. This is my space, stripped back to bare bones.
And in the name of full disclosure, here is something worse. This is everything I had to move from the floor, the table, the window sill, and the chair, to even get it looking like this. Bear in mind please that this is also everything I need to put back, give away or throw out. I am going to handle the shelves one at a time, I didn't dare go any further once the bed was covered.
Now I am going to put some music on, get a wet cloth and see what I can do!