Decisions are sometimes major turning points in our lives. Should I stay or should I go? Should I tell? Which way to turn? Buy or sell? Do or die? At other times they seem smaller, may even be smaller. Will I have an apple or a banana? Will I phone her today? Will I check my email? Will I try? A handful of these little choices have long shadows though. You didn't try, but you would have won. You didn't call, and a loved one passes away before you get the chance again. Such dense matter this decision-making, easier sometimes to stand still. True stillness is rarely a possibility however.
"There came a time when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
In my life at the moment, the big decision has been made. I was living a lucky life on paper, but was increasingly unhappy with the sacrifices made in exchange. The things I hold most dear were fighting for breathing room with a job that I love. So I am walking away from the job that I love, towards an authentic life with time for my loved ones and time for my soul. Such a big decision, decided in one small precious moment of clarity. "No!" to stress, new clothes, dinners out and mindless shopping. "Yes!" to health, marriage, art, reading, distant family.